why?

It's not fair.
It makes me upset
the fact my brother
has been kicked out.

School...
the place where you grow
where you learn
it's so normal to make mistakes
why do they have to be so harsh on him?


THIS IS HOW I FEEL -->

BOB, I love you.

I don't know why I love you so much. Okay, maybe it's because the way you make me smile, or the way you inspire me. Maybe it's because those words you say, the echo of my thoughts, or how I can relate myself, and my feelings, to your stories. Maybe it's because that light your soul has, that is reflected through the melody of your words. But I love you, I do. I love the way I feel when you are with me. You make me happy, with you I can be myself and do whatever I want to. I'm free, because so you are and together we fly. you are the best partner a person can have, because you're like the sun, irradiating warm and peace. when I hear you I'm the flower that blossoms thanks to your light. i thank the Lord for having created such a great human being and i hope some day i can inspire others the way you have inspired me.

That's why I love you Bob. You're the best, and through your music it's like if i could see your soul...

Now, there's a natural mystic blowing through the air and you have become the mellow mood of my life. I'll play your favorite songs, darling.

I LOVE YOU BOB MARLEY! R.I.P. GOD BLESS!

Invisible

Sometimes I feel no one can see me standing there, breathing the same air as them. Sometimes I feel nobody cares and I'm there, all by myself, feeling so alone. No one is noticing me.

I'm one to the world, but I guess I just want to be the world to one.

MUSIC

Music is my life. I love the way I can express my thoughts through music. It's amazing, It's marvelous, It's a miracle, It's magnificent. One of the things I love the most is music. It's a part of me, a little piece of my heart, of my soul. It makes me who I am. It makes me a better writer,and a better person to express myself through a melody with words that rhyme.

I love Music, I've never realized before how much I like it, but know I do. It's great to discover new things about yourself everyday. It makes the search to define who you are way more easier.

"And I, don't know how, to slow it down.
My mind's racing from chasing pirates.

Well the man in there swings while the silliest things, floppin around in my brain.
And I try not to dream but them possible schemes, swim around, wanna drown me in synch.

And I, don't know how, to slow it down.
My mind's racin' from chasing pirates."

Chasing Pirates- Norah Jones

...

SEVERAL THOUGHTS ARE RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND... I wish I could say "I don't care", but the truth is I do. What's the problem with teens? (and this time I exclude myself because I don't have that problem) Can't they just wait until marriage to make love? (sorry, is just that I think to call it "have sex" sounds too impersonal and cold minded).
And if they can't (which is technically impossible, because people used to do it in the good old days) don't they know the word CONDOM? It has been created for your use, you big smartasses. USE IT, please.
Why there are so many girls preagnent? seriosly, guys out there, you have to think things right before you knock up girls around the globe. Try this word: ABSTINENCE. If you want to fuck a girl just because you want to, and not because you love her, don't do it. Because, even though you use a condom, it's not a save bet, and guees what? she might get preagnent. And what about her? and what about you? Don't you have dreams, do you want to star a family at 16, 17 or 18? I don't think so.
I mean, I can't even imagine myself having a baby today or tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow.
NO WAY.
I'm the crying baby of my house, I don't even know how to cook... ok I do, but I suck at it.
I can imagine someday getting married though. Finding the one, and maybe taking cooking classes so I can cook decent meals for him, but I don't know, that will happen when God wants it to happen. I'm not jumping into anything. So why Teens do that? why they have to be in such a hurry for do all kinds of stuffs? Guys, the end of the world might be close, but I don't really think it's going to be on 2012, so what's the rush? There's plenty of time to live, to laugh, to cry, to love and to make babies with a family. Not just making the baby and then go to prom while your mother is putting your baby to sleep.
Anyway, I was just thinking about that, and why most teens are so horny that they can't take things slowly... Am I the only one who thinks ABSTINENCE is a positive thing? Because, seriosly, I think that people shouldn't be having sex, they should be making love, giving love to get love in return.
That's what i think.

But I guess... there's no many people who agrees with me. And i really don't get it. I just want to get graduate, but I guess most teens want to be changing diapers.

WHATEVER.

Soneto V by Garcilaso de la Vega

"Written on my soul is thy gesture

and all I desire to write about thee

thee thyself wrote it, I only read it

that even on that matter I follow thee

In that I am and shall be ever ready

cause even though I cannot cope with as much

as I see in thee

from so much good, I believe in what I cannot understand

already taking the faith as a premise

I was not born but to love thee

my soul is patterned to thy measures

and because of my soul’s habit I do love thee

I confess to owe thee all I have

for thee I was born, for thee I am alive

for thee I have to die, and for thee I die."

***

"Escrito está en mi alma vuestro gesto,

y cuanto yo escribir de vos deseo;

vos sola lo escribisteis, yo lo leo

tan solo, que aun de vos me guardo en esto.

En esto estoy y estaré siempre puesto;

que aunque no cabe en mí cuanto en vos veo,

de tanto bien lo que no entiendo creo,

tomando ya la fe por presupuesto.

Yo no nací sino para quereros;

mi alma os ha cortado a su medida;

por hábito del alma mismo os quiero.

Cuando tengo confieso yo deberos;

por vos nací, por vos tengo la vida,

por vos he de morir, y por vos muero."

ADOLESCENCE

Darkness.

Everything is dark,

I'm scared,

I'm blind.

I wish there was a light

I'm lost and confused

Why am I standing for?

So many questions,

so many doubts

Who I should trust in,

When I feel the whole world

is against me?

I can't see where I'm walking

I trip and I fall.

I hit the bottom of the ground

many times.

And then I'm tired of get on feet

to then fall one more time.

Frustration arrives.

When is all of this darkness

going to disappear?

It's exhausting, but necessary

being on the darkness

is the only way out

to recover my sight

and found me.

Paulina Nicole C.

FROM THE INSIDE OUT

A thousand times I've failed 
Still your mercy remains 
And should I stumble again 
Still I'm caught in your grace  

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades 
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame 
my heart and my soul, Lord I give you control 
Consume me from the inside out Lord 
Let justice and praise become my embrace 
To love You from the inside out  

Your will above all else, my purpose remains 
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise  

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades 
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame 
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control 
Consume me from the inside out Lord 
Let justice and praise become my embrace 
To love You from the inside out  

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades 
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame 
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise 
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out

MY FAVORITE SONG :)

FROM THE INSIDE OUT- HILLSONG UNITED

I just haven't met you yet

Haven't met you yet- Michael Bubblé

I’m Not Surprised
Not Everything Lasts
I’ve Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I Stop Keeping Track.
Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up
And Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Loose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Know Someday That It’ll All Turn Out
You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I’ll Get So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

Mmmmm

I Might Have To Wait
I’ll Never Give Up
I Guess It’s Half Timing
And The Other Half’s Luck
Wherever You Are
Whenever It’s Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility

Mmmmm

And Somehow I Know That It Will All Turn Out
And You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid I’ll Get So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

They Say All’s Fair
And In Love And War
But I Won’t Need To Fight It
We’ll Get It Right
And We’ll Be United

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility

Mmmm

And Someday I Know It’ll All Turn Out
And I’ll Work To Work It Out
Promise You Kid I’ll Give More Than I Get
Than I Get Than I Get Than I Get

Oh You Know It’ll All Turn Out
And You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
Yeah I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

I Just Haven’t Met You Yet
Oh Promise You Kid
To Give So Much More Than I Get

I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet
Love Love Love
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

;)

RAGE

RAGE, one of the worst feelings on earth. A combination between being upset, mad, angry... and also being on the way to hate someone. A feeling that's burning inside of you, pushing its way to come out.

I don't like it, but I'm human and I can't help to feel this way.

if she wants to replace me that's fine, but she needs to tell me that on my face, not over the phone when I'm sick and weak to defend myself. That's a cheap shot.

She's totally insane,

She can go to hell.

Fuck you, Fuck you very very much.

(FYI this goes to my drama teacher)

You're worth the wait

Never

ever

truly

cared

when love takes

Your eyes so nice

make my heart smile.

When i'm on a good mood

i don't feel so blue

but when you act like ice

you make my heart sad

you don't deserve a second chance

if you act like that.

Never

ever

truly

cared

what hate was about

in my life

the stars were my guide

every time I was feeling down.

The night was cold as ice

no bright, no light

so lost, so hurt...

take me by the hand to walk.

Never

ever

truly

cared

until we met

Your eyes became mine

'cuz your smile is my guide.

It's so nice to finally care

what love and hate hide.

Never

ever

truly cared

until we met

Tell me your secrets

show me the way.

You're worth the wait

every day.

All I need today

Say (all I need)- One Republic.

Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Better than you had it
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Yeah, better than you had it (Better than you had it)

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it.

:)

Welcome to the 'horizontality'

Yup, after being almost two weeks sick I can say proudly that I've gain probably a lot of weight during my sickness, all due to the fact I've been lying over my bed for big amount of time. Yes, I've been eating like a maniac just to try to release the pressure that being in bed can cause. I know many people think it's relaxing, hey! I used to be one of those people, but now I'm not so sure. The free time is great always if you're not sick and feeling like shit, that's for sure. If you have fever, then it's not pleasant. If you're coughing and sneezing all the time, either.

Being sick sucks, not only you can't do fun stuffs, but you also get fat. It's not that I care much about it. I've been always skinny, despite the fact I eat like a truck driver. It's just that apart from feeling fat I feel... fluffy.

So as I'm eating my forth cereal bar of the day I'm thinking... what the heck! people who eat don't get sick, except for obese people, that's for sure.

Soulmates

I didn't believe in soulmates before, I don't know why I didn't use to, I just didn't. Perhaps it was because of what happen between my parents and all of that junk, yeah most likely. Until one day I'd one of those crazy dreams that leave you breathless, one of those dreams that change your life roundly and irrevocably... a dream about him, the man I'm waiting to meet some day, my soulmate. But how do you know that it's not just some crazy fantasy or dream, a delusion you've created in your own mind?

Well, you just know. It's as simple as that.

And it might sound as the biggest madness of all times, but since I had that dream I've been incapable to love somebody else. It's just that every time a man walks toward me I back off, because I know there's other man on this earth that's meant to be my partner and that he's waiting me, just like I wait for him. Pretty crazy, don't you think? but I guess that's how love works. On mysterious ways.

So, I feel incapable of dating with someone right now, I just feel on the mood of making good friends... and I don't really know why I started writing about this, but I just did.

I wanted to talk about the man of my dreams, the man who appeared over them to become the king. The man who made me love him since then. With light blue eyes and a matching shirt he became my inspiration, my prince. I'll be your princess, baby just say yes. Can't wait until we meet to share my life with you.

Until then, I just wanted to say I wish you were here.

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy...happy

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles a back lit canopy
With holes punched in it
I'm counting UFOs
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy...happy

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Wish you were here

The world's a roller coaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
But my hands are busy in the air saying:

I wish you were here
I wish you were

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Wish you were here

THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE SONGS IN THE WHOLE WORLD, FROM INCUBUS. AND ALSO MY PLAYLIST OF THE DAY.

:)

Songs for today

Today I spent the entire day on my bed, all thanks to a cold that's killing me, and I'm not literally speaking.

Anyway, I tried to cheer up myself a little with the help of music, because music is my life, such as movies and writing.

Here's my playlist of the day, hope you like it:

* Rastaman live up- Bob Marley

* Closer- Kings of Leon

*Take it all- Hillsong Unitated

* The scientist- Coldplay

* Strawberry Swing- Coldplay

*Manos al aire- Nelly Furtado

Playlist of the day

Okay, New philosophy of life:

Everyday I'll start with a playlist, because what better way to start your day than with your favorite music? that way my emotions would identify and become one with music, which is poetry in motion.

So, here it is:

*Just my imagination- The Cranberries

*Linger- The Cranberries

*Crack the Shutters- Snow Patrol

*From the inside out- Hillsong united

Songs that talk about dreams to me, about my heart and soul's desires.

:)

Today was a great day, despite the fact I had two tests, English and History.

Either way, it was a great day.

The premier of my drama play was today and with my friends and team mates did a great job, so I'm pretty proud of our work. The mistakes we made were minimal and the rest was soo awesome!

I'm so happy, can't stop smiling.

Today is still a great day, all thanks to the Lord.

Yay!

:)

I love

I love ice cream

I love rainbows

I love music

I love ditch classes

I love my bed

and the way my hair looks over the sunlight

I love the color of the sky in a summer day

such as I love the color and smell of pine trees

I love Christmas

I love the smell of popcorn

And I also love the way you look on my dreams

and the fact some day I will have you for me

But what I love the most is writing

Putting my thoughts into words

to make some poetry.

That's what I love the most.

I Hope one day I can find you

to make my dreams come true

To love you too.

oh yeah, to love you too

I hope one day

someday very soon

We could be one

while we're holding hands

That way I wouldn't be alone

not every more

'cuz you'll be my side

just to take my hand

and walk through the life

And I love freedom

such as I love wacth birds sing over my window

and I love breathing

the way I feel alive at every minute

I Hope one day I can find you

to make my dreams come true

To love you too.

oh yeah, to love you too

I hope one day

someday very soon

We could be one

while we're holding hands

That way I wouldn't be alone

not every more

'cuz you'll be my side

just to take my hand

and walk through the life...

I wanna' love you

I just want to love you

and share to the world

the kind of love I feel when I dream about you

I love... you.

My 1st Movie! YAY!

Here is my first movie. Hope you like it, my opinions about it are totally biased, a part of me thinks this is HILARIOUS, the other one thinks it's EMBARRASSING.

You make your call.

I just wanted to thank my beloved brother who always helps me at doing this kind of stuff. Thank you and I love you :)

one of those days...

Today, gosh... how can I even start to say how my day went... words, words to describe it, just one: CRAPPY LAME DAY. Whoops, that was more than just a word, ehhh whatever.

It started like a pretty normal day, my 'alarm clock' woke me up, AKA my mom. I opened my eyes and the first thought that run over my head was 'Gosh I hate high school. When is it going to end?'

There's nothing I hate the most than get up at 6:30 am, when my bed is so freakin' delicious. you know what I mean? I bet you do, but it wasn't until now, until the afternoon when the day went from normal to shitty. All thanks to my drama teacher.

You'll see, there's the kind of people that is annoying because they are pretty unhappy and all they want to do is screw everyone's life, and there's the other type of people that's annoying because that's just the way they are. Well my drama teacher is both things.

Try to stand that for just one afternoon.

It's not that I don't like her, sometimes she can be... well, nice, but that's only sometimes...and not very often. I know I shouldn't be complaining much though, because today she wasn't so bad to me, she even gave me some orange juice and all of that. And I also know deep inside, very deep inside, she cares about me, but it's her voice and the way she's always trying to stick out the boogers out of her nose that drives me nuts. And I'm not kidding.

How am I supposed to act if she's with her finger searching for the boogers. HELLO! I can't concentrate with her finger at her nose! Why can't she do it in a bathroom? why does she have to do it in front of me?!

It's diabolic! and completely not sanitary.

To make things worse I was so sick with the stupid flu and coughing the entire time that all I could think of was...Gosh I was i'd stayed in my bed. In my delicious bed.

Why? why does high school has to even exist?

Why does my drama teacher has to stick her boogers out of her nose in front of me? why? why?

Why can't I love and accept everybody like God does? why? why?

Maybe because God hasn't have to see the devil sticking his finger up his nose to get rid of the lovely boogers.

Yeah, maybe that's why.

who's your best friend?

Today while I was riding the bus from school to my house I was kinda of thinking on how the day went and all that junk. It was weird, because suddenly in my head all I could think of was in a song from Paramore that I don't even like much, and all I could think of was 'Ignorance is your new best friend'.

So, when I arrived home I started listening at that song, analyzing why I was even singing that part. My conclusion was it's actually a good song, is just that at first you don't like it because of the way the girl sings it's like if she was mocking at you, when she's truly mocking at the society, which is completely understandable 'cuz hey! sometimes society sucks and people do a lot of stupid things just to blend in, and all of that thanks to their new best friend, IGNORANCE.

The lyrics are pretty awesome, with a lot of meaning, so if you ever hear the song turn up the volume and sing along.

DON'T LET EVER IGNORANCE TO BE YOUR BEST FRIEND.

a Dream

I had one of those dreams that have a meaning, even if you don't know what the heck it means, lol!

Anyway, I thought I should write it down so I won't forget it, but first I have to explain that it wasn't one of those dreams you have when you're sleeping. I was just literally thinking in what would happen that if I had like a major accident and my life changed in a minute, and forever. That instead of dying I changed into something... what if all of the sudden I wasn't human anymore, what would I do?

The answer came at the same moment I made the question on my mind. I would like to help others. Save them. Save their souls and give them a second chance to repent and be a better person. And I think God will be pretty satisfied with that.

So, anyway, that would be my mission if i changed and I became inmortal. Of course I wouldn't be the only one, there would be others like me that also changed due to strange circumstances. We will still look like humans and feel like humans, but our brains and strengths will be much evolved.

I had this dream a while ago. Just something I imagined one afternoon and the idea refused to let me go. I mean it, I couldn't stop thinking about it. I thought I was going nuts, it was so much that I woke up one night, I remember it was like 4 am and i started writing... the only problem was that I didn't have any paper close so I wrote everything on my arms and hands and at the next day my mom saw me and she was like "what on earth happen to you? why did you write on yourself?" and I said "well, I didn't have any paper close by and the copybooks were too far away from my bed".

Until one day I started writing everything I was imagining on my laptop and I couldn't stop since then. So I'm pretty excited to say I wrote a whole book about it and not just that... I also edit it, printed it and made a book cover for it. It actually looks like a real book. I promise I'd post a picture of it someday soon.

Even though I still don't have any followers yet I don't mind. because I know someday, very soon, everyone is going to know my work. And I hope I can change their lives, just like in my book.

:)